What an adventure....

Hello Everyone,

    Sorry I haven't been around but I took a little break.  My two oldest daughters got home from school as per usual on Thursday May 26th, 2011 at 3:40 pm and by 5 I decided to spontaneously pack up and drive 18 hours to see my husband.   The children were great, we left our town by 8pm Thursday night and we got to our Motel room and all checked in by 3 picked up daddy by 5 and we spent the entire weekend with him we stayed until Tuesday.  We were only supposed to stay until Monday, but my husband hurt himself and I was hoping they would send him home so we stayed the extra night to make sure he didn`t drive home alone in bad shape.  He didn`t.  They switched his course, then switched it back and he`s still there, two more weeks to finish up this one but then in October when he goes for his two months he will need to go a week early to make up for this missed week :(  I`m okay with that.  I sort of had a break down today.  I still haven`t caught up on the sleep that I have missed (I drove straight without stopping to sleep or rest....long days) and I`m still tired.  My 5 year old is just as tired.  She was having a very bad day today.  Crying at everything.  I felt bad for her.  But the next time he goes away we won`t be surprise visiting him.  It was too cold for me there in May and June so I`m not going in October or November lol.

  My husband and I got into a disagreement tonight and I felt really bad because I wasn`t handling the time alone with four children well today because I`m sick and I`m still tired and I blamed the military and I know if it came down to me or the military he would choose me and that makes me happy, but I don`t want him to make that choice just because I had a bad day.  Everyone has bad days and today was mine.  I haven`t before, I was really good the last three times he`s been away I think it`s partially because I was hoping he`d have to come home and they kept him.  I love him very much and he loves the Navy so I will support him no matter what his choice.   Some times, most times, the life of a military wife is not a great life.  We get the crappy end of the deal more often than we don`t.  The military has our husbands and we don`t know what`s going on for sure.  It`s always wishy washy, things change all the time on a seconds notice.  There are no guarantees.  There is no way to know what will happen in the future.  From one day to the next everything can change.  Our husbands aren`t to blame as they don`t know what is going to happen either.  I just pray that my husband is always safe :)  That my friend`s husbands are always safe.  I love what they do for us to keep us all safe and living free.