Disappointment.....

So, I'm a little disappointed.  I have signed up to do movie reviews and so far I have had two emails saying which movie would you like to review.  I say all of them (only 4 per month) because both times I would like all of them, but so far nothing.  I'm so sad about that because I love watching movies and giving my opinion.  Like this movie that's coming out soon, I can't wait to watch it.  Ryan Reynolds is awesome and I can't wait to see it.  It is going to be good I can feel it in my bones, and the best part about it is that it's produced by the same people who made the stupidest movie I've seen in my life "the Hangover" have you seen it??!  DON'T!! I can't believe how dumb it is.  I didn't actually watch the whole thing all at once, those movie drive me crazy!!  BUT my husband and I saw the Green Lantern, I have a feeling there will be a second one.  I am so stoked.  I really liked that movie.  Well it's been some late nights so I'm off to bed.  My husband comes home in 40 hours and 9 minutes.  Not that I'm counting :)  lol

So in love...

I HAD THE MOST AMAZING DAY TODAY.  THE CHILDREN DIDN'T FIGHT TOO MUCH AND WE WENT TO THE PARK/WATER PARK AREA ON OUR LOCAL BASE AND JUST HAD A GREAT DAY.  ALL AND ALL I AM VERY PLEASED WITH THE DAY.  EVERYONE WOKE UP IN A GOOD MOOD.  MY OLDER GIRLS WENT TO A BIRTHDAY PARTY AND I TOOK MY LITTLE TWO TO MY PARENTS HOUSE BECAUSE MY BROTHER CAME HOME FOR THE NIGHT, HE LIVES 3-4 HOURS AWAY SO WE DON'T SEE HIM VERY OFTEN.  ACTUALLY I THINK I HAVE ONLY SEEN HIM A COUPLE TIMES SINCE MY GRANDPA JOINED MY GRANDMA IN HEAVEN BACK IN JANUARY :(  I CAME HOME AT NAP TIME WHICH WAS PERFECT BECAUSE THAT LASTS TWO HOURS AND IT ALSO TAKES TWO HOURS TO MOW MY LAWN.  EXCEPT.....NEITHER OF THEM WANTED TO SLEEP, THEY WERE TOO EXCITED TO GO TO THE POOL AFTER NAP TIME LOL.  I MOWED FOR AN HOUR THEN THE BIG GIRLS GOT HOME.  MY HUSBAND FINALLY WOKE UP AT 10 MY TIME WHICH WAS 11 HIS....MUST BE NICE TO SLEEP THAT LONG I KNOW I WISH I COULD SOME DAYS.  AFTER HAVING OUR FUN MY OLDEST DAUGHTER WENT FOR A SLEEPOVER AT HER GRANDPARENTS HOUSE AND SHE IS NOW GONE FOR 2 NIGHTS.  MY MIDDLE DAUGHTER AND I WATCHED BIG BROTHER TOGETHER AND THEN I SPEND 3 HOURS ON THE PHONE WITH MY HUSBAND :)  EVEN THOUGH HE IS 1600 KM AWAY I HAVE NEVER FELT CLOSER TO HIM WHEN HE'S BEEN AWAY BEFORE.  I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.  HE TRULY IS AN INCREDIBLE MAN AND I LOVE HIM TO PIECES :)

It's been awhile...

Hey everyone, sorry that I disappeared on you again.  I really do intend to blog more frequently.  I have just been very busy lately.  My husband came home from being gone for a month.  He wasn't even home a month and he had to go again (only for 2 weeks though) but the month of August is a busy one for him and then he is also gone in October for 2 months.  He will be home for Christmas.  That is my only major worry is that one day he won't be home for Christmas and that will break my heart.  Christmas is my all time favorite day, time, season of the entire year.  I love Christmas.  And then he goes again for 3 months in the spring.

So, I have been having a rough time dealing with my husband being gone this time.  He's not even gone long that's the part I don't understand.  I mean he left me with a 2 month old last summer and I was perfectly fine with the four children but this time for just 12 days I just can't seem to handle it well.  I think that it may be because it's too soon after the last time he was away.  I need to change my mind set because I want him to do all this stuff I mean he loves it and it's what he wants to do but then I'm lonely and feel crumby when he's gone.  I don't work so I really am just home all day and night with my four wonderful babies who fight on and off throughout the day as siblings often do.  I am very disappointed in myself because I feel I should be able to handle it better, but I can't!  I don't, for whatever reason, I just cannot deal well with separation :(  I feel so angry with myself because I know I can handle it, I just don't know why I'm not.  I think with wanting to buy our first home of our own and not wanting to be away from my husband, I mean I am ready to move to wherever in the world they put him just because I hate being without him especially at night :(  I miss the security that having him near by would give me.  I love my husband very much and I am very clingy lately.  You'd almost think I was pregnant the way the emotions fly about this pending move lol.  I'm not.  We have chosen not to have anymore children, not that I wish we hadn't made that choice every time I see a new cute baby ;) lol.  Well, I'm off, finding it hard to keep my eyes open.  I will be back tomorrow.  I promise!  I am going to try to blog every night after I put my angels to bed.  I love my children so very much I struggle every day with trying to do the right thing and give them the best of life.  I hope one day they see....all I ever wanted was the best for my babies.

It's been a busy month....my list of complaints.....

Hello Everyone,

How have you all been?  Well I have had a frustrating month.  We always seem to need the most money when we have none.  We had a huge hydro bill that I had to pay off and because of that my budget for the month went out the window :(  Our insurance, which is supposed to be due every six months, came due on all three of our cars and our renters all at the same time.  I'm not sure how that's possible, but yep it's due now.  I'm so frustrated.  I really don't know how the government expects families to survive.  I mean a family of 6 is obviously going to use more hydro than a family of 2 or 3 or 4 even, but do you think we get a break.  NOPE.  The majority of us all work the same minimum wage job and, I don't know about you, but my husband is the only one who works because it would cost approximately $1000 for ONE WEEK to put all four children in care for the summer.  So, basically I would be going into debt if I got a job.  This is so stupid.  We get the same wage, pay the same bills, use more hydro, buy more groceries....it's ridiculous how they expect us to survive.  I have so many complaints about the world today.  ALSO, buying a house.  I don't understand why a person can pay $850 a month for rent for almost 4 years now but that same person cannot buy a house with a mortgage payment of less than $500......just because something happened to their credit 7 years ago.....how stupid is that?!?!  Well I better get going There is no rest during the summer when you have 4 children.